Freaky Flesh..

i have been sitting jobless,doing nothing for the past one year now.While in college i was this puny fellow who resembled a big '1'.Well..that was my tag since i was 5 yrs old.I wanted to change that image,using this extended holiday and become "FAT".Yes...mad as it may seem..i wanted to be fat.Not exactly fat...i dint want to look like a shirt hanger when i wear formal shirts in office.So i began on this major lazy routine of eating,sleeping,beer,eating junk and no physical activity for about 8 months.

Fortunately or unfortunately it worked.My waist size has increased from 28 to 32(pushing 34).My body mass has increased from a mere 49kg to about 68kg now.There is a flip side to the entire " i wanna look hefty" idea of mine.I put on weight where i dint want to and i am still 'thin' in other areas.My body is like a developing country,with huge botches of poverty and some patches of wealth.

I started to have this freaky flesh thing under my chin.It is officially called as "chin fat" and is very very unhealthy.FUCK....it freaks the fuckin shit outta me...i cannot bend down and look at my toes without realizing that i have a extra 'bladder' hanging from my chin :( . I tried to do exercises. (errr....i assumed chewing gum is a exercise ) but..it dint work...the flab keeps increasing.Trust me i know..i have started having trouble looking at my toes .i can do it only with considerable effort now.

I think i will look this (left) in a years time..... :( FUCK...i miss being thin....

This is what i found in a medical related website..BASTARDS have a weird sense of humor and they made sure my bouts of insomnia continue.

"

Chin fat responds well to weight loss. Losing down to your doctor-recommended weight may just be the cure for that double or triple chin. If not, and if chin fat is disrupting to the individual, surgery may be a good solution.

The problem with chin fat is that in may instances of weight gain, the skin stretches and loses its elasticity and is unable to go back to its original state. The dieter is left with a wad of unsightly hanging skin which probably is more bothersome to them than to others - but bothersome it is. Nature has a way of doing things to remind us of our mistakes so that we think twice before repeating them. In some instances, we find it necessary to use available means to correct her unwanted presents. "

Have u seen "TAXI DRIVER" ??? De Niro vows to get his body with an awesome and inspiring dialog.
"I gotta get in shape now. Too much sitting has ruined my body.
Too much abuse has gone on for too long.
From now on it'll be pushups each morning.
Fifty pull-ups.
There will be no more pills, no more bad food...
no more destroyers of my body.
From now on it'll be total organization. Every muscle must be tight."

i have put this as my wall paper alongside De Niro's picture(Travis Bickel).i have taken a vow to exercise and lose the freaky flesh,from today the WAR starts between me and my body's destroyers.Freaky flesh may have won the battle..but i will win the war..!!! (did i get it right?? i always mix em up..)